loading/loathing

I wanna be god of the seas

and i'm gonna

but i'm just learnin to breathe

underwater

I don't wanna spread the disease

but i'm a goner

guess it's just my destiny

as a loner

a stone cold soldier

sea of depression i'm sinking lower

head over heels i'm fallin over

she said she could heal

my broken heart and now it's stolen

I just fell back and watched it all unfolding

now i'm waiting for things to change and switch over

like my life was a game that was just loading